I Will Always Get Home

Even goodbyes are a little feeble, don't you think? Recalling those memories. The hardest part is leaving. You cried over me and I shed tears for you. I'm not ready to lose you either. It's knocking down my heart and soul for knowing that you are lonely. You need someone. You need someone to wash the weight on your shoulder.

We are lost. We are blind of direction. We need to find each other. Being with you is a valuable lesson that I wouldn't get in anywhere else, you're the only home. But if you are my home, then I've never been home. It's not the love that all you need is just body, that all you need is just kisses, or all your burning desire and merely a pleasure. This is clearly not the love that people think just drawn to gender and lust. Just tried to be frankly here, you don't even have to change your gender to be my platonic lover. What I have to do just simply showing my affection, support you and give you a strength. Because I am the one who keep you sane and you need me that much. Even though we have to bid a goodbye, until we meet again.

"Outstretched to wonder why we don't belong. You deserve much more, and I'll give until I'm all gone."

It's true, you deserve much more. You deserve a lot of affections. You deserve to get a happiness. Even if happiness did not exist though. I'd find the happiness at the edge of the world if I had to.

Your pats on my back were like magic. It was so soothing. At what speed must I live to be able to see you again? To feel you again? To support you again? To talk to you again? To share laughs and tears.. To feel your heartbeats. I talk to myself a lot. I laugh to myself a lot. I care about you. I think about you a lot and I can't seem thinking straight right now.

You're more than just people I roleplay with. You're my friend and you're meant a lot to me. As much as I don't want to sound cheesy but I care about you, I'm worried about you, I think about you, I love you and I will never forget that. I really mean it. 

" I'm so happy 'cause today
I found my friends
They're in my head

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I'm so lonely, that's ok
I shaved my head
And I'm not sad
And just maybe
I'm to blame for all I've heard
I'm not sure
I'm so excited
I can't wait to meet you there
And I don't care

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 I like it I'm not gonna crack
I miss you I'm not gonna crack
I love you I'm not gonna crack"

- Lithium by Nirvana -